urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty amburr amburr 2007-11-21T22:34:37Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:45105 2007-11-21T22:34:37Z 2007-11-21T22:34:37Z Acid Bath :: Finger Paintings of the Insane I've actually found a descent man. <br />He goes by the name of Batman♥<br /><br />This will probably be the last time I ever update this thing..<br />I just wanted that on record. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:44893 2007-06-05T17:36:33Z 2007-06-05T17:36:33Z Im graduating today! <br />=] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:44669 2007-05-23T23:38:34Z 2007-05-23T23:38:34Z tonys home now.<br />we bicker alot though. it sucks. <br />i dont like it.<br /><br />i have 4 days left of school. hell yea.<br />and then life begins. <br />gotta get a job. gotta get my own place. <br />gotta have FUN.<br /><br />and then the gathering ♥ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:44474 2007-03-16T17:20:03Z 2007-03-16T17:20:03Z i miss my hunny..<br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:43828 2006-12-31T22:14:51Z 2006-12-31T22:14:51Z i dont have a new years revolution.<br />but i heard of a good revolution.. double everything you do.<br />fuck twice as much, smoke twice as much weed, drink twice as much as you already do for the new year.<br />(it could account for anything else you do as well, but this is the party night so those are the essentials)<br />haha, sounds good to me. <br /><br />actually i totally forgot you were supposed to have a new years revolution til the other day.<br />hmm.. i geuss you dont need one..<br />all it does is make you feel like you did something good. <br />why not do that more then one day a year? <br />you know you dont stick with your revolution anyways..<br /><br /><big>♠</big>SRH<big>♠</big> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:43574 2006-12-14T01:56:06Z 2006-12-14T01:56:54Z job for a cowboy you have my mind on overdrive baby.<br />♥<br /><br />those who agree to blue hair say "I"<br />???<br />or yellow/orange/red (all 3) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:43487 2006-11-29T13:58:45Z 2006-11-29T14:00:13Z its my favorite when...<br />there's that one person that takes over your mind.<br />there always in it, and you cant get them out. <br /><br />hmm.. new peircing!<br /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g290/40_oz__casualty/spinaltap.jpg" width="287" height="384"><br />back of my neck =] <br />it was the best feeling in the world!<br /><br />mcl♥<br /><br />PS - Hallowicked was the SHIIITT =] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:43254 2006-10-28T16:40:53Z 2006-10-28T16:40:53Z i wish i was a robot..<br />&emotionless.<br /><br />who the fuck really reads this??<br /><br />i think ill just be alone for the rest of my life. <br />i try to give people chances, try to tell myself <i>just this one last time, maybe itll be worth it</i><br />but no.<br />everytime..<br />so im done.<br /><br />hallowicked in 3 days motha fakoos. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:43000 2006-10-19T20:54:50Z 2006-10-19T20:54:50Z im doing peircings now.<br />so holla at your gurl if you'd like a new hole.<br /><br />much♥ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:42748 2006-10-02T20:47:44Z 2006-10-02T20:47:44Z so im depressed again.<br />whats new? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:42022 2006-09-20T20:08:03Z 2006-09-20T20:08:03Z shane is coming out here in like...11 days. it's crazy.<br /><br />hallowicked is in like a month n it's straight up gonna be the SHIT.<br /><br />nothing is new. just school and work and blazin'.<br />this job aint cuttin it for me though. the pay is shit.<br />n its not helpin me save up for my own place. at all.<br /><br />i love this weather. <br />it feels like halloween n i LOVE it. ♥ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:41955 2006-08-31T19:19:56Z 2006-08-31T19:19:56Z blaze ya dead homie i got a job. <br />i start today at 4.<br />i already almost dont wanna do it.<br />of course, i just wanna blaze.<br />but i gotta make the money so that i can blaze.<br /><br />my manager didnt see my gauges yet<br />and i have to wear my hair up while im on the floor.<br />so i dont know how theyre going to feel about that.<br />mom said my solid plugs should be fine as long as i dont wear the flesh tunnels.<br /><br /><b>G's up, ridin' from the cradle to the casket<br />And beyond, recognize thug shit<br />Poundin' out the trunk bitch<br />Runnin' wit' a mother fuckin' hatchet<br />you haters, you suck dick was a thug, became a G<br />B to the L to the A, Z, E, still dead<br />Still don't give a fuck <br />Sportin' all black kahkis with the mother fuckin' cuffs up<br />Smokin' Hella trees, tryin' to make a couple G's<br />So a thug can get back on his feet<br />Mean muggin', steady thuggin'<br />And I'm tryin' to find the hoodrat's all about fuckin'<br />Still loked out<br />All my dawgs from the past, dead or smoked out<br />Still tryin' to come up on a lick for a phat ass ride<br />So I can drop the top, and parlay through the east side<br />♥</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:41504 2006-08-25T19:19:19Z 2006-08-25T19:21:01Z [empty]<br /><br />succumbed by my sickness<br />overwhelmed by my fear<br />cant relate to the thickness<br />of blood clots in my tears<br />cant fixate-im spinning<br />now face first on the floor<br />this ailment is winning<br />lets see if you survive-fucking scums &copy; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:41161 2006-08-11T02:48:45Z 2006-08-11T02:48:45Z i <b>hate</b> underwear.<br />end of story. <br /><br />but i <u>love</u> making clothes.<br /><font color="ff3399">♥</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:40716 2006-08-02T21:22:11Z 2006-08-02T21:22:11Z HOLY FUCKING SHIT <br /><br /><br />I NEED MY LIFE BACK<br /><br /><br />BEFORE I PUT A HOLE IN MY HEAD urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:40617 2006-07-28T13:21:06Z 2006-07-28T13:28:20Z blaze ya dead homie i have dangerous mood swings.<br /><br />n<u>bitch</u>you<b>scared</b>.<br /><br /><img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/6334577/111974" width="240" height="320"><br /><br /><img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/6334578/111974" width="240" height="320"><br /><br /><img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/6334580/111974" width="281" height="240"><br /><br /><img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/6334581/111974" width="240" height="320"><br /><br />I'm sweet. What can i say? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:40192 2006-07-24T19:08:17Z 2006-07-24T19:08:17Z ive never been so depressed in my life.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:40167 2006-07-17T16:05:58Z 2006-07-17T16:08:55Z i took off &&went to the gathering.<br />i only got to stay the first couple days though. =/<br />next year will be the shit.<br />cause ima have my own god damn campsite with my own tent.<br />my own bud, &drink, &any other mind altering substances.<br /><br />but anyways. i cant drive my car for awhile.<br />&&i need a job. <br />my bday is in about a month &&a 1/2 &&i wanna move out.<br />but i need a job to be able to move out.<br />&&i need a car to find a job.<br />so it looks like im <b>FUCKED</b><br /><br />oh yea &&when Psychopathic Rydas played, they played Last Ride. <br />&&i swear it felt like Kevin was chillin right next to us. <br />it was amazing. he was chillin right next to us, singin right along with us.&lt;3<br /><br /><big>mmfcl</big><br />xoxo<b>amburr</b><br /><br />ps. im in love with this man. <u>he is my <b>salvation</b></u>&lt;3<br /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g290/40_oz__casualty/000_0193.jpg" width="508" height="381"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:39921 2006-06-18T22:03:19Z 2006-06-18T22:03:19Z deftones im sleep deprived. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:39308 2006-06-01T02:19:57Z 2006-06-01T02:19:57Z DEMF was the <i>shiieeet</i>.<br />i had so much fun. <br /><br /><img src="http://myspace-865.vo.llnwd.net/00784/56/86/784396865_l.jpg" width="600" height="450"><br /><br />ill have more pics once i get the camera developed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:39036 2006-05-14T21:54:38Z 2006-05-14T21:54:38Z hmm happy mothas day to all you mommas out there.<br /><br />my back hurts, im bored outa my fucking mind, &i want some nikateen.<br /><br />my nose is stuffy.<br />im sick of fucking driving.<br />i feel really full & i have to eat with my family. it sucks. <br /><br />new hand-me-down shoes. pumas. theyre pretty sweet.<br />im sleepy.<br />i just wanna go to roys right now. of course.&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:38676 2006-05-07T05:25:57Z 2006-05-07T05:25:57Z i just dropped roy back off at home not too long ago.<br />i was gonna see if he could spend the night sense he was here for so late<br />but i didnt think that would fly.<br /><br />we went to hooters earlier.<br />&i wore my bugs bunny slippers there.<br /><br />we rented hostel and andre the butcher.<br />andre the butcher is the stupidest fuckin movie ever..<br />&was the biggest waste of $2.50 ive ever spent.<br /><br />so...there's nothin else to say...just bored.<br />im waitin for my korn shirt to come in the mail..<br />i wish it would come already...peace y'all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:38453 2006-04-21T15:23:33Z 2006-04-21T15:23:33Z <a name="cutid1"></a>here's some shit i wrote during insomnia. most of it's long.<br /><br /><u>Stained Glass</u><br />Where to begin<br />when you've got so much to live<br />so little to give<br />and you're swallowed by the capacity of sin<br /><br />Drowned out by fear<br />The ripple in a wave<br />formed by only the drop of a tear<br />triggers our ability to array<br /><br />Toned down by the fear of loss or rejection<br />the needle takes over<br />You're helpless fighting against the forceful injection<br />the prey of an overwhelming infestation<br /><br />Peer through the window wearing another being's shoes<br />situations seem so old<br />yet everything's so new<br /><br />Reach out at life with hands of a newborn<br />take in your first breath as if your last for eternity<br />and patch up all that had been tattered and torn<br /><br />Where to begin<br />when life is no longer intriuging<br />Places grow old<br />but your eyes are no longer even seeing<br /><br />Cornered, alone, and you feel as a bother<br />Your minds convinced every breath is a waste<br />every inch the blade covers<br />has such an extravagant taste<br /><br />Your mind is set on surrender<br />every nerve sending out orders to give up<br />without even suggesting a defender<br /><br />Dont trust another on account of first impression<br />their only intention is betrayal; wanting you to feed off their hungry lies<br />Be sure of every precision; as if a killer's manifestation<br />Stop obsessing over being the world's inspiration; trying to be societies concept of perfection<br /><br />Difficulties arise and suddenly<br />the ability to walk away without hesitation<br />"true love will stand the test of time"<br />Yet how so when you're walking away and there's no preservation<br /><br />Where to begin<br />when you no longer want a part of what you're seeing around you<br />Feel so alone in a world full of people<br />Put up a fight, no one said anything was easy<br />Savor in your mind that you're only human being<br /><br />===============================================================================<br /><br />Contemplating everything left unsaid<br />persperation dripping from my head<br /><br />Unaware of how this hell came to unfold<br />wishful thinking; dreaming all the lies were left untold<br /><br />Change stings as if a slap in the face; [slap] happens so quick<br />wish time could freeze, I'd savor the old bliss<br /><br />Just hold my hand; a lock of trust<br />Lightly kiss my brow, for burden of proof, just to reassure "us"<br /><br />A river from my eyes flows uncontrollably <br />I gave you my heart, unintentionally<br /><br />I'm here in exchange-my heart for your sabor<br />Perhaps I'll stab YOU in the back...just returning the favor<br /><br />===============================================================================<br /><br />My mind is restless as <strike>we</strike> I speak<br />Your ghostly touch lingers on my rosey cheek<br /><br />My lips pucker before nothing but air<br />I've been mislead to thinking you'd always be there <br /><br />Peering through the corner of my eye<br />Hoping to see you but I find only empty space occupying my side<br /><br />"I'll love you forever, no matter what"<br />Well what's your conception of forever<br />'Cause the stopwatch is still running<br />and forever isn't up<br /><br />===============================================================================<br /><br />Latest news<br />is<br />that<br />love is oblivious<br /><br />apparently <br />so am i<br />because<br />i <br />was not informed<br />of this<br /><br />===============================================================================<br /><br />Silence is abruptly loud<br />when you listen<br />very closely<br />So what if <br />love becomes hate<br />when held too <br />dear to your heart<br /><br />Perhaps we hold<br />the power<br />to reverse a state of being<br />when overanalyzed<br /><br />===============================================================================<br /><br /><b>this is the bullshit that insomnia makes me do.</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:37940 2006-04-09T14:16:42Z 2006-04-09T14:16:42Z so last night was one of the worst nights of my live.<br />ever.<br /><br />but things are a little better now. <br /><br />it's really nice outside n that cheers me up a little.<br />so im pretty sure ill be okay. <br /><br />im about to reconstruct my Clash shirt. it's gonna be cute.<br /><br />i hate going into Charlette Russe because i want to buy the whole entire store.<br /><br />it's almost 420♥<br /><br />&i need a job so i can get money for the gathering...<br /><br />in about five months i might be getting my own place as well.<br />as long as i get a job that has good enough pay. <br />or someone i can trust and i know wont come up short with their 1/2 of rent.<br />so wish me luck bitches. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:40_oz__casualty:37884 2006-04-05T02:37:15Z 2006-04-05T02:37:15Z hey an update! <br />except i have nothing to say.<br /><br />well i found out there IS a tech fest this year!! <br />&&im so entirely happy about this!!<br />so yay i get to make my really cool boot covers!! =]<br /><br />and the gathering is in michigan this year!!<br />&&im going!!! =]<br /><br />i just went n saw shaggy2dope @ clutch cargos on thursday.<br />&&it was the <i><u>SHIT</u></i><br /><br />im hungry as fuck.<br /><br />ive decided that when i turn 18 im going to be a <b>Suicide Girl</b>.<br />and itll definitely be amazing..i cant wait.<br /><br />♥